This is funny to me because everyone always assumes that I am creative, when I know that I am not. People think that I am creative because I draw and do other crafty things. However, I am an imitator, not a creator. I cannot create without an image being put in front of me. When I am inspired to make something crafty, it is never from my own head. When I found out I could draw, people would encourage/harass me to try to develop my creative side and see what I could come up with on my own. It seemed that no matter how I tried to explain it, I could not convince people that I did not have the talent to create, only to imitate. I am okay with this. It's funny to me that other people aren't.
My non-creativity translates to other aspects of my life, which is how this relates to my blog. The prompt was Body Image & Creativity. How in the world are they related? How in the world is creativity related to my weight loss journey? Well, for starters, I have the most success in losing weight each week when I eat the same thing every day, day after day. I find a meal that suits me that has a proper allotment of calories and I eat it every day. When I get tired of eating the same thing, I eat more normal and don't lose as much weight. When I try to be more creative with my eating habits, I am less successful.
As for body image, I have written before about how I always thought my body image issues would go away once I lost weight, but they haven't. In this way I have been somewhat successful at being creative, because I have had to come up with creative ways to battle this. I have found that dressing in new and creative ways helps me feel better about my image. Same with making sure my hair is done and my make-up looks right. I started wearing lip gloss for the first time ever. It doesn't fix the problem, but these little things definitely have helped me to see myself in the mirror as what I am and not what I was. I still run into those days where I say to myself "who has time for all of this?" But on the days I spend time on myself, I definitely feel more confident.
Today I am thankful for sincere compliments. It's nice when people notice on the days I try.
Thanks so much for participating in the series and reflecting on creativity, Rosie!
ReplyDeleteRosie - interesting post. You say in your "About Me" section that you've battled your weight all your life. There must have been many times you said to yourself, "I just can't do it. It's not in me."
ReplyDeleteAnd yet, here you are. It WAS in you, after all.
I'm hoping for your sake you someday feel that way about your creativity, because that, too, is IN you. It's on this page with the really cool orange background that *I* never would have picked in a zillion years and find I really like now that I see it here. It's in the tale about the lip gloss, and the different smiles you choose to show it off. You're creative in the way you find ways to deny your creativity. And it's all good. :-)