This post is actually a continuation of the Timeline in Pictures. That post was getting too long and somewhat off topic, so I decided to split it into two posts.
As I had mentioned, this weight loss journey has been extremely emotional. I almost feel like I am losing my sense of identity. My identity for as long as I can remember has been the fat girl. As I have shown you in the previous post, this hasn't necessarily been true, which is one of the reasons why this has been so emotional. Such a waste of negativity.
This is the kind of thinking that has been driving me crazy lately. My brain is definitely going to have to do some rewiring. I can't lose all this weight and make it to my end goal and then spend the rest of my life still thinking of myself as the fat girl.
Sorry for the downer posts, I'll get back to my perky self now. Today I am grateful for the FC Twin System that finally came in the mail. I've been playing the old Nintendo games nonstop! Yeah for Mario, Duck Hunt, and Punch Out and for friends who play with me!
Aw don't be so hard on yourself! People come in many shapes and sizes and we're none the less for what we are. Even if you've been heavy you were always funny. I'm heavy and not that funny =p
ReplyDeleteYou'll always be you no matter what shape you are. You'll just be a healthier you!
I sure hope so! I like myself the way I am, I just want a healthier body. Thanks for the validation! :)
ReplyDeleteAfter I became a stay-at-home mom at age 27, I had just gone through almost a decade of being "the smart one", and I had defined myself by being a student and then by having a career. When I gave this up, I had to re-evaluate who I really was. I had to look inward to re-define myself. I don't think it is a bad thing to discover who you really are from the inside instead of defining it as something tied to the outside such as your looks/weight or what you do/career. This may not be the last time you or I have a crisis of identity, but that is okay - it is part of the journey of life, and your health is worth it.
ReplyDeleteI got on on your blog through Emily's. You are awesome! I have been trying to lose weight since I had Avery in Feb. and it is not easy. Keep up the good work. You look great:)
ReplyDeleteThanks a lot for commenting Shari and Sara!
ReplyDeleteYOU HAVE BEEN HILARIOUS since I remember, and I have known you for a VERY VERY VERY long time. :)
ReplyDeleteI have a great friend who is a stick. She's hilarious. So there are skinny funny girls too ;)
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